I miss being in an endless torrent of drama and \”love\”. Nowadays, it\’s all about irritation and annoyance.
I wake up. I go to campus and work. Then 9 hours later, I tumble home. Sleepy, drowsy and hungry. I make food. Make idle chit-chat. I clean. Then I sleep.
I hate this mundane cycle.
I look for relationships to provide me with excitement. I am bored. I want attention. I want drama. I am waiting for it to happen. But I don\’t like dealing with the downsides of these.
I want to feel again. I have been reading my old entries to find it. And I find my obsessive forlorn love, lost in glances. I am tired of feeling nothing. I miss feeling that attraction, that appeal.