Sometimes I wonder how I can function properly in the real world.
I can\’t deal with many things that well and I end up almost crying. Acting like a child.
I have been working with my group for almost 8 full months. Today, I walked in and was frustrated with the way things are going. We\’re in our last week. The deadline is this Friday. I want to work on the demo video using Adobe Premiere. It\’s fun to me. But then I am being pushed and pulled in different directions. And my teammates don\’t understand that I need to take time to do the video, thinking it will be easy. But I need to invest time. My powerbook died. I don\’t have a computer constantly available. And it just irritates me. And then Jeff came in with the softball pictures, the team I quit earlier because of him.
And it makes me feel empty and lonely. I hate it all. I would rather be alone at this very moment than anywhere else.