When my powerbook broke, I had to use my desktop. Rather than signing into AIM, I signed into my trillian that I had installed months before but hadn\’t logged in for months.
But the moment I did that, the people I had deleted from my list in those months reappeared. It\’s strange how these names carry so much meaning. Each person is associated with one single screenname, but I can remember their history. So I can know 250 different people and remember every single thing about them. The interaction I had with them. The reason why and how they got on my aim list. Is it because I associate so much with each person, is that normal?
According to my count, there are 75 people I deleted ever since I left Berkeley (the last time I really used Trillian). Those 75 people mattered less to me then when I moved to Pittsburgh. They were the ones that I kept on my list just in case. The ones that I thought I would talk to, but decided that it wasn\’t worth it. And deleted them. But because of the way Trillian is built, it tries to put the deleted ones back in. A comparision of the old list with the new.
So here I have…
Alston – someone who I had liked during my freshman year, but things fell apart toward the end; he was weird.
Arden – Cliff\’s friend, my sister\’s friend
Jean – he who I must not speak of
Jiong – my neighbor across the hall who never stopped making fun of me, he got annoying when I moved out
Stacee\’s friend – I don\’t even know his name anymore, I think I got mad at him or something
Ajay – I still have yet to meet him in person, Noah\’s friend
Haywood – Karen\’s friend
that girl who was so overly religious and annoyingly attention-loving – god, she was too young and I didn\’t have the patience
matt – still have his other sn
mike – got too ljish
channing – got a gf
julie – I decided that we couldn\’t be friends
jason – for the purpose of going to duluth
some girl – i don\’t know who
some guy i met on icq
norbert – the guy from my senior prom, what a waste of time
lin – i got mad at her my freshman year and things never got better
desmond – it never progressed between our friendship in class
stacy – it got very annoying toward the end of high school
channing\’s other sn
xing\’s other sn
zhibo – never really talked that much after 160
sherri – i was good friends with her freshman year, but after that…we just went on different paths and we didn\’t bothered to keep in touch
haywood\’s gf
hansel – i don\’t remember why we don\’t talk online
jason – after the rob incident, things just didn\’t progress. he used to call me cornbread, an affectionate name i suppose
some guy
mike – he was so whiny, so emo, didn\’t work out after the rob/dan thing
emmy – met him on a cruise ship, we just couldn\’t keep in touch
kent – i am too smart for him
some guy from LA
scott – a guy who totally had a crush with me, but then i must have gotten mad him, online fling
steve\’s cousin – also some stupid argument
richard – had liked him the day i met him, but you know things just drift apart
i don\’t know who this is
steve – after the rob/dan thing, it fell apart; he is such an azn, a disappointing one at that
linda – my former roommate, didn\’t work out of course
john – some idiot from msu
cat – didn\’t work out
alex – some guy from my california asian cup
emily – my old roommate
sharon – my groupmate from 160
i don\’t know who this is either
paul – one of those internet connections
xing – another sn
tiffany – haven\’t really kept in touch after i graduated
xing – another sn
mae – she doesn\’t trust me and thus i couldn\’t trust her judgment. bad things lead to more bad things.
dan – another worthless sn
simon – another disastrous sn
ellen – for the sake of talking to my sister\’s friend
jon – after the rob/dan thing, nothing was the same anymore
john – still the idiot from msu
tom – sister\’s bf, didn\’t see much point of keeping him on my list
albert – just some kid
simon – another sn
who is this and why does everyone call themselves sunlit
marisol – bad things happened and so do regrets, but alas what we can we do
simon – my supervisor my junior year, but as things do we just don\’t talk after he graduated
ken – i was too sensitive, and things happened…and i just couldn\’t help it
hien – she never went online, she stayed close to her family which was good but i never saw her, i never understood her well enough to understand her values
eddie – yeah whatever dude
leo – i think there were reasons
ah, another sn
jennifer – former roommate freshman year
marisol – another sn
ah yet another sn
travis – they don\’t do always well
another sn of that mexican boy
priscilla – heard that she got married, but didn\’t know her that well enough to keep in touch after high school
keith – some guy i vaguely knew from danville
hansel – possibly another sn
i just don\’t remember who this is…
clare – hi.