I imed Mike today, to tell him that his advisor was at CMU and gave a talk. I thought it was rather amusing that his advisor was here…
But somehow our conversations led into experience/inexperience. I don\’t remember how that happened. I mentioned a few of my failed relationships. Then I launched into a charade of how someone led me on. Of course, the definition of this varies from person to person. Maybe some take it much more. I see being led on as direct obvious flirting, obvious to me and other people around me. No actual intimacy involved.
But for Mike. He has been with a very long string of girls ever since April. I don\’t understand. How could he? This is something I read in books and see in movies. How does someone pick up someone so easily? Kissing without meaning? No strings attached? I don\’t understand, but perhaps I haven\’t gotten to that stage yet. He talked about meeting a girl at MIT and how they ended up in bed the very same night. Ok, how does that happen? He couldn\’t answer my question, because apparently there were too many to count.
I don\’t like being labeled innocent, but I can\’t help it. I don\’t want the immediate labels of innocent to come along. I am not naive. I am not ignorant. But true, I may be inexperienced. And I hate being labeled as such.
Why is there such a division between asians and nonasians? It almost seems like being asian, we tend to take things slowly. We don\’t take risks. We are innocent, but doees that mean we\’re missing out on so much more?