I rarely im people, because it\’s out of habit. I am attracted toward other things that distract me on my powerbook so I neglect to pay attention to my buddy list.
(Although I do look at my buddies and sometimes start wondering why nobody is iming me…)
I notice that there are always people who like to acknowledge my presence. I am never mean to people, at least I try not to be anymore. I like to acknowledge people\’s presence. Yet I still carry this quiet presence.
When I get excited, I do fling my extroverted self out into the open, sometimes obnoxiously dominating the conversation. Most of the time, I try not to do that.
When I walk into the lab. The people that say hi to me first, yelling my name as I walk in. Bryan would say, \”Jenni!\” Sam would say, \”Jenn!\” And Jonathan would say \”Jenni Five!\” Other people would give me immediate nods. The same kind of smiling nods I would give to other people I like.
When I see people talking together, sometimes I get this slight wave of envy. Especially if it\’s someone I like talking to…I start thinking that maybe I am not good enough, all trivial hints of my lack of self-confidence.