Yesterday, I had a relevation. What if Chris couldn\’t keep up with me. My yearning to really discover the city, to explore, to find myself.
Yesterday I had met someone who reminded me of the carpe diem that was possible. It was oddly refreshing to be met with humor and a slightly sharp edge that reminded me of someone a long time ago. Afterwards, I found myself being as sarcastic. It was strangely different. And for a moment, I thought about how it was just great meeting all new people.
And yet I am reminded that sometimes that yearning is only on the surface. I can dump what I have and think there\’s more, but there really isn\’t. It\’s a facade. A lure of the unknown which is nothing more than small talk. I would get frustrated again as I always have.
And yesterday when I was visiting Kyle, I found The Last Kiss the DVD on his desk. I laughed and pointed it out to him. He even admitted that it was a bad movie, but it reminded him of his own life. He pointed at the girl closer to Zach Braff. That\’s what I need to do.