He is…he understands me.
And what if tomorrow was my last day. What if the somber mood that I am wearing for so long is all for naught? What now? Who will I run to?
Because if tomorrow doesn\’t matter, then consequences don\’t matter. Except for the ones that remain with the broken hearts.
I press hard and all that comes back is a leak that goes on and on.
I saw Andy today for the first time since I briefly saw him in Pittsburgh. Awkwardness was so prevalent. But even more so because he was with someone. Someone that I recognized. And my heart was wrenched because here I was alone. So alone, because of my choices. Because I couldn\’t stand to live with myself with what I already had.
Selflessness is what matters to me so much. As Shipra said, \”if there was an easy answer, then it would be easy.\”