When I lose my own self-control, I say what\’s on my mind. But it\’s always because I naturally can\’t resist what I really want to say. Why let something else dictate it to me.
I don\’t remember how it started, but somehow I let it fall in the air. I am pissed off at you. Oddly enough, the short moment of silence did not bother me, but I could feel the intense stares. I kept my voice steady and strong, as if I was describing a standard story. I don\’t know if I smiled.
And yet I persisted.
Later, he came up to me asking, \”What are you so angry about?\”
\”Do you care to fix it?\” was my first response. Inside, I knew that I could not filter myself and was trying to find a way to suppress myself as much as possible.
I knew his response and so fortunately I could suppress it. \”I don\’t.\”