Angst

Here’s the thing about me: I am always ready to take criticism. Insults. Whatever. Because I was always easily believe them. Of course, that sounds about right about me. That is me. That is me.

And very rarely and maybe more recently, do I say, that isn’t me.

That’s what I don’t like about performance reviews. It’s subjective and I don’t like them.

Also right now, I am annoyed with taiche. It has taken me a long time to get to a place where I know that it’s not me. And I have encouraged him, maybe begged, maybe demanded that he needs to figure out how to get stuff done. Get that tax software, get the wedding appointment, get the request. I don’t want to be the nagger. But these are things that are expected, like rent. So why is he able to get things done, that are beyond me, but not for us, not for me? And of course, ultimately, it comes down to: why is it not important enough for you?