all these nights

I felt ok during the party.

But I am also now not happy that I had to express my bitterness about parties and bars. I am just atypical compared to most people my age. Usually I don\’t care. But this brings me down today. I go to sleep.

I met Dang last week. It was surprisingly a few days after I had stopped talking to Chris. Was it just a coincidence? Doesn\’t it always happen to me? I lose the fascination of someone only to move onto someone else almost immediately. But it\’s not because I did anything. It just happens. Yes and on AIM.

At first, he was just a great breath of fresh air. It was someone who was not Chris and that gave me so much relief. He had found my blog through one of my friends. For some reason, he was so impressed that he asked my friend shyly to introduce him and me. I was surprised and flattered. Of course, it was slightly flirty, but I excused it.

But. There\’s always something that goes wrong. He\’s the opposite of me…in lifestyles.

I would have hated to admit it before, but I live a very…conservative lifestyle. I don\’t go to clubs. I don\’t go to bars. For the reason that I don\’t like that kind of atmosphere. I don\’t meet people through parties or similar social events. I go to small parties if anything or parties where I know almost everyone. I don\’t drink. I am an introvert. I would rather spend time alone than to spend it with many people. Despite having had \”3\” boyfriends before, I don\’t…go on a spree of dating. I am never looking for the one in any social situation. I don\’t judge a person by whethere he is datable. I don\’t think about that at all. I don\’t go to the beach to hang out. I don\’t wear makeup. I don\’t own many shoes. I don\’t even own any perfume. Plus I take care of getting rid of bugs. I fix computers. I am silent when I am happy. I am so atypical.

And he is…typical? He says he\’s an introvert, but he seems like an extrovert. He goes to parties, typically large ones. He goes to clubs to meet people. He would rather spend time with a lot of people than by himself. Loneliness and boredom creep up on him when he is alone. He is on a dating spree, or supposedly he has stopped because he would rather become serious. When he meets a girl, he thinks is she datable? He dances like nobody is watching. And sings the same way too.

He is studying for law school, shooting for the top ten. I would have to admire the lofty goals. But our personalities, lifestyles are so different. Even as just friends, I feel like we would clash. Or at least I would have problems with it.