The moment that I enjoy talking to someone is the moment that I realize that I don\’t really like that person as much I had previously believed.
So Will ims me every single time I go online, starting with one of those random words. A geek method. I really hate running out of things to say and letting awkwardness set in. So i just try to say whatever. But there are times that I can\’t prevent it from happening.
Today he was telling me a story of his roommate. His pacing was slightly off. And I was getting bored halfway through, as he moaned about little trivial things.
So I don\’t know, people focus too much on my words sometimes. And I often say things that I don\’t really mean, it\’s more of a space filler.
So he tells me, and suddenly the story is done. The climax was nice, a video that was posted on his internet about his horrible roommate. Then, ok end. Then what to say. What do I say now. Now that it\’s over?
I offer tidbits of my thoughts. Regrets? I ask. He says…of what? I sense a feeling of defensiveness and I stop myself from pointing that out to him. So I just let it go. Regrets are always around, I say. And the conversation falls to silence. And he says he has to run and I am left there wondering whether it ended well or not.
Think less of those you befriend. Believe in only that friendship lasts no matter what the problems are.