trying not to get irritated

I woke up today thinking that I was really impatient and that I should lessen that kind of resentment. I should be laidback.

But the more I think about something, the worse it gets. The more irritated I get. The more resentful I feel.

I guess the latest thing was that Ray seemed slightly bothered by how I split up the water/sewage bill. He had paid for the entire month of August, because Carol moved out (sort of) by August 1. So I was like ok…so I asked him to pay the entire month of August for the water/sewage. So I thought that was fair. But he disagreed saying that he shouldn\’t have to pay, but starting from when he actually moved in.

But now. I gave him some pressure saying that I could pay for it just to make him feel better. But then for him, that was more of a guilt factor…so he said no.

It is the principle, he said. But ultimately, what does that matter? Just try not to think about it, and it will be ok. Just don\’t bother with it, and it won\’t matter.

So why not follow the analogy of when you start rent, you start all the following utilities. That\’s always the case with any apartment, any place. So I was annoyed, but whatever! I should have stated that from the very beginning instead of leaving it ambigiuous and leaving it open to questioning later.

And then I could really say \”LOOK AT OUR CONTRACT. IT SAYS THAT IS WHAT WE ARE TO DO.\”

I hate financial stuff. I hate financial stuff when sharing a bill with other people.

I also hate nervous laughs. But I am guilty of that too.