Talking about that vague, ambiguous is something I would not avoid earlier. I had intended to do it this weekend…but somehow by the end of the night, I forgot.
Last Friday night, I was embarrassed when I somehow talked before thinking. At Eat n Park, in a moment of energy, I answered my friends\’ questions about the guy. Who it was, and who it was supposed to be. In front of 6 other boys.
I want to keep those things to myself to relieve the expectations, but I didn\’t. That night I didn\’t sleep until 5:30 am.
Then the following day, I woke up to a phone call from Andy at 2 pm. And then it was a great day. But I still have yet to cross that threshold. I am slightly afraid, a little wary, a little concerned because I want to leave Pittsburgh in May…but to start something now, knowing that there could be an end hurts.