I must have gone over this over and over again. I really don\’t know where I want to be. I love it when I am with the right people, but those things can change so quickly. Sam and Will both got on my bad side and suddenly I have this incredible yearning to get away from the bay area. I don\’t know why I am so dependent.
I am not really.
I am not ditsy either.
Lack of confidence is often my weakness and I know it. I hate it when people tell me to change, because it\’s hard already to be someone else. I miss what used to be as I say. But I am only diving into oblivion when I say that. Because a few years from now, I\’ll be saying the same thing about this period thinking I really knew what was right in the world.