Jeff told me yesterday to just…not think too much.
I should really, because thinking only increases my anxiety about certain things.
But nonetheless, what drives me crazy is the lack of impulsion in some people. Is it the hey i am just not into kind of thing? It drives me crazy to think I am put into a position where I have to guess instead of let things happen as they\’re supposed to happen.
I have spoken outloud about how I feel and what I think. I am wary of my decisions and this is one of them. I don\’t want to make the first move, because he would have too much power. I don\’t want to be vulnerable but this would be my weakness for revealining it in the first place.