Walgreens and cold

I was walking down the aisle in Walgreens looking for toilet bowl cleaner when it dawned on me that I act this way every single time. Surrounded by mops and brooms, staring at the common object, I knew that in a year, I would have the hindsight to feel what I should have been feeling.

I can\’t help liking Chris so much. And I question whether I am more enamored by the thought of being with him than him. In most cases, it\’s always the former. And I get caught up in obsession. Right now, I am trying to keep myself from falling and tripping as I always do.

I have a feeling that I may have messed up. The way that I have a tendency to confess everything that is on my mind. I don\’t know. And sometimes I am squeamish and just want to forget that it happened even as much as I want it, then I want to forget, then I want to play the avoidance game and swallow the pain, the heartbreak and move on. But I don\’t want to if I don\’t have to.

Wouldn\’t it be so much easier if he just said no?
Just let what happens…happen

But if anything, I am tired of being alone. I am tired of being single and only looking forward to a night struggling for my own independence. In this world of twos, I am usually ok with walking by myself, but when I have to sit at a table for two, I am reminded that pairs are always the best.