Suddenly, I have this dread of going to work.
But it\’s not that…I really dislike it. It\’s mostly that I feel uncomfortable there as if it\’s not the right place for me. And I always have this from job to job. So when will it be over?
On the outside, it seems great. The trendy job. The job that looks good on paper. But I don\’t always like the things I have to do. The things that I have to be.
The anxiety and the stress. Similar to the sudden stress I had while standing outside of the restaurant today. It\’s control I want…the predictability. But I would have to compromise it all to get what I want.
I don\’t want to succumb to corporate life, but then that\’s probably the comfort zone. The one that I don\’t want to be, but what I need to be.