\”It put it on hold,\” Joe said.
My loves. My relationships. My fears. My insecurity.
I am still filled with melancholy although I feel somewhat lighter. I want to grasp what I can, because I almost believe that things are slipping through my fingers. Is it rejection? Is it disappointment? Is it because I cannot decide?
Or that I have decided but the decision does not sit well with me?
I really want to stop playing this game, this dilemma. I just want a companion to ground me…and whatever the case…I am not satisfied.