so it does not concern me

A few weeks later, I realize that I don\’t really care about Bo. I am not sure if it\’s myself denying it, but I don\’t feel anything except \”good riddance\”. Denial?

But my emotions and mind is elsewhere.

I absolutely hate that someone is trying to do my job. That is the PM at the project. I know that I am rather sensitive to my insecurity as a designer so when someone goes over it, it\’s so annoying. Or more so from someone who isn\’t qualified. It bothers me—maybe because there\’s worry that I am a fraud? I am not sure.

But I really hate it when someone tells me how to do a job that I know best. The micromanagement that only tells me that I am not doing my job. Just let me do it. I am as detail oriented about these kind of things as the next person, especially when it comes down to my responsibility.

If you don\’t like the way I do it, then why don\’t you do it then? I know that\’s just a catch all, be all behavior, but it\’s the only way. I am not trying to be any better (maybe communicate better) and I know that it\’s your insecurity reflecting itself to me. But it gets in the way. And I can establish boundaries right.

Whatever the case, this totally isnt working out. It drives me up the wall and I behave poorly and it becomes a nonproductive environment when my sulk rides all over everything. I am pissed. So I hold the words back and yet it comes pouring out nonetheless. It seethes out and I know that I am not compromising. I know that I am not making true collaboration. But I thought that this would be left to my domain.

So the only thing that I can do is walk away, because that\’s the next best thing and I really would do it. Seriously. Just leave me alone!