I can\’t believe I let a 15 year old who doesn\’t even know me…have a comment influence me so deeply. God.
I still lack self-confidence in so many things. There are reasons that I am so ambivalent about blogging. The good side is that people seek to understand you, to believe you. You gain so much confidence from this. However, the bad side is that people misinterpret you. They assume things that they think they know from a few posts. It\’s not their right to make critiques or judgements.
And yet, I allow what they say to hurt me. I get hurt too easily. The pain perhaps is something so masochistic of me. I love reading what people think, but when they think badly of what I write or what i am, I let it influence me. Why? I seek acceptance too often. I seek attention. And in the end, it may be the fault for all the undoing in this world.