\”Andy T!\” Jonathan would normally yell down the hall when he would spot Andy walking toward the lab.
When I first met Andy, he couldn\’t distinguish him between KC, because they wore similar glasses. The thick emo kind. I didn\’t think that much of it.
He imed me the Friday that I had wanted to go to Tessaro\’s. We slightly bonded at that point. All of us were still in the beginning stages of getting to know one another. From that day on, we talked some online. He found the way I used words fascinating for some reason. He would im me asking who dis was, because I had sent him photos from my photo album. His way of speaking online amused me.
I felt that we bonded in some unique way. Yet, I wasn\’t ready for any type of relationship, but I really did enjoy his company. Under perhaps a mask of stealth, he asked me for my practice midterm and I immediately asked for a favor. But I was joking. Rather, he decided to take me to the strip and Whole Foods. That day, my parents had made me cry while I was on the phone. And when Andy finally called, I told him to give me five minutes. I stood there trying to gather myself and looked at myself in the mirror. I splashed water on my face and pulled on sunglasses. When I walked outside, I smiled when I saw him and went to his eclipse.
It was strange when he kept following me around when we were at Whole Foods.
Later, we went to Walmart where it was slightly better.
But then finally, there was a moment when he asked me to take him to Mt. Washington. We went to Boston Market first. It was the day after the 6 lb burger and I was feeling rather full. I got a small meal while he got a larger one. I showed him the way to Mt. Washington where we walked to the outlook. It was breezy and we finally opted to go to his apartment. At his apartment, it was oddly comfortable for me. We bantered back and forth as if we had known each other forever.
Yet I always felt wary and somewhat afraid. He laid on his bed, looking up at the ceiling. I sat at his \”dining table\” somewhat uncomfortable. Not sure what I was supposed to feel. I finally just sat back, trying to relax.
I told him that I should get back. Fear in the last few years had made me worried about going into any relationships. It just doesn\’t ever feel right anymore.