If I can only swallow them and not let them hurt me.
I am now sitting in front of my computer. Wondering why I still have these doubts. I\’ll let tears fall because I am in too deep already. I would be torn to tears if it ended. And I only know it\’s because I am unsure about my future happiness.
He\’s not satisfying my need right now. My need to feel confident and being someone.
Because of the job situation, I am feeling helpless and alone. I want someone to be here for me. It\’s supposed to be him. And on the first day, it was him. He promptly called me and asked me. Then he followed up at the end of the day…talking to me, making sure I was fine. But that day, I was feeling optimistic.
It didn\’t hit me until today when I got the exit forms and a rejection from Google. And I just felt crushed and unhappy.