Because of disappointments, not meeting expectations and heat…I have been all grumpy and cranky all afternoon.
The morning started ok, but then I realized nobody contacted me. And thus I was left alone…alone again. In retrospective, it\’s somewhat like my college self—demanding and self-centered. But right now, I just felt abandoned. Crippled with social anxiety. Why can\’t I rise above it as I walk back and forth Mission trying to find out what to eat.
There are the parents factoring in. The displeasure with my sudden decision to city bike. And the almost disapproval of my choice of job. The criticism which I think I constantly sense. My choice of visiting vegas…pre-planned. It is my choice and I know this is the case. But in some way, I hate to be seeking approval and I think I will say so.