Jeff admits that he\’s slightly obnoxious. And inconsiderate.
When he first made that observation, I was surprised. At the time, I appreciated his bluntness without much thought. Yet over time (perhaps it was because I was looking for this characteristic), I wasn\’t happy when he would made blunt remarks without the polite effect.
For example, I have always expected that people clarify the part they don\’t understand when I say something confusing. Like what does ___ mean instead of general blanket statements like huh or what. Then again, people do that all the time. In IM, it seems so much more blatant and so much more rude. Maybe I am sensitive.
At this point in my career, I have come to realize that I just am not a natural leader. That sort of saddens me because that means I can\’t be the best. I am not the person that would motivate everyone. I have to first become comfortable with the group I am working with…and then only then will I suddenly have all the leadership skills within my reach. But perhaps I am wrong, perhaps I can really get those skills and push through the glass ceiling. Perhaps.
It is both necessary to say and think that being is: for to be is possible, and nothingness is not possible. by texas holdem